Wednesday, June 07, 2006

Has anyone seen my motivation anywhere?

First of all, I've not been blogging regularly which is almost always a bad sign! Part of it has been work-related insanity, but most of it is related to the fact that I've been searching for my motivation for the last little while. Haven't had any luck finding it, so if any of you happen to see it....please send it back my way. I miss it terribly.

A report on the last week or so. Eating hasn't been overly atrocious, but it certainly hasn't been acceptable. Let's start with the major offenses - vegan cherry pie (about 1/2 a pie...I ain't gonna lie - it was sinfully delicious), a very delicious Greek feast (it included mounds of tzaziki, white pita, and potatoes), and lots of pizza.

Exercise hasn't been overly wonderful either, but I have been going for long walks to clear my head - so I guess that counts for something!

Last time I weighed myself (I think it was Friday or Saturday), I was the same weight. No surprise. I should be relieved. But my pants are starting to feel tight...perhaps the scale hasn't yet caught up with my body?

Part of my stall, is the fact that I'm really stressed at work right now. I'm not overly happy in my job, and I'm having a tough time with it. However, I can't just leave, because it's not a convenient time for me. I'm really bad at dealing with stress. My hubby doesn't really react to work stress at all, and can't understand why I let things get to me so much! If only we could all be like him.:-)

And when I get stressed, I start to feel like I have no time to think, to breathe, to TAKE CARE OF MYSELF. I need to relax, and put things in perspective. And that's what I'm going to try and do!

First things first - I booked a massage appointment for this evening. Next, I'm making a date with a good book, some good music, and a bag of low-fat popcorn tonight. Hubby is going to the Radiohead concert, so I'll have the place all to myself.

Next, I need to stick to my exercise plan. I'm going to add in yoga, keep up with the walking, until I'm motivated to go back to the gym again. Last weekend, I also picked up a schedule at a nearby pool. I just need to DO it now.

I suppose that I should be thankful for only gaining 5lbs in the last few weeks, the way I've been carrying on. And believe me, I am. But I want more than that for myself, I really do. And I won't give up until I get there!!!

I promise to blog more regularly.....


Cowgirl Warrior said...

It sounds like you have a good plan, it's funny about motivation that was the topic of my meeting last week and I know my own has been lacking. I like how you said you have to focus on you, I think we all get caught up in all around us and forget about taking care of ourselves.
You go girl!

Becky said...

I was worried about you and hoped you were doing OK! I missed you girly! You'll do great, I just know it.
If you ever need me, you know where to find me.