First of all, THANK YOU a million times over for all of your lovely and wonderful comments after my last post. I was somewhat in the depths of my diet despair, and you all saved me. Each and every one of you said something that made me smile, and for that I am so grateful.
As an update, I'm feeling a lot better now. I am going much easier on myself, and am not expecting perfection. I am patting myself on the back for the little things - like the extra glass of water, or the refraining from dessert at dinner. I'm not hating myself for stealing some french fries off my hubby's plate at dinner on Saturday night.;-) It's nice that I'm finding some peace with myself.
Well, here's an update for you. I broke up with my personal trainer on Friday. I really didn't want to do it, but I had no choice. Some of you will recall this incident. Well, there were a few other small occurences that were similar to that, but the straw that broke the camel's back happened on Friday. He called me up, to remind me that my next month's payment was due. Fine. He then asks me whether I can pay him for the following month's payment as well - upfront, not post-dated. He tells me he's wanting to pay a deposit on a condo, and he really needs the cash. I'm a little ticked off at this point, because it's a tad unprofessional. Secondly, I'm not an idiot - why in the world would I front him that much cash before he's even provided the services? I tell him this, and he offers to give me a free session if I help him out. Anyhow, I very politely turn him down, explaining I'm on maternity leave with no job right now (which he knew!), and that I simply couldn't help him out. Sorry.
So the guy doesn't say a word, and hangs up the phone sounding all ticked off with me. Can you believe this?
He is an awesome trainer. He knows his stuff. That's why I contacted him again. But his focus seems to be so money oriented, now that he's started training clients privately. His professionalism just isn't there anymore.
So, I fired him. It sucked. I think he might have even cried a bit. But I really had no choice. I can't afford to keep paying someone who isn't committed to my success, but rather, sees dollar signs in his eyes all the time.
Therefore, I'm on my own again. But I'm okay with it. I'm going to keep my eyes open for another trainer, and in the meantime, I'll just keep working out on my own.
And yeah, it feels like I'm starting over a bit. And it might seem like I keep doing this...but everytime I do, I'm a little further ahead than the last time. So it's okay - as long as there's a will, there's definitey a way.:-)