I was a teenager in the early 90's, so naturally, I loved The Cure.:-) Except the line in that song is REALLY fitting at the moment.
We all have different complexes when it comes to seeing ourselves in photos, right? Some of us thing we look atrocious in MOST photos and hate being photographed. Some of us think we look amazing. And of course, there are some in between.
Well, there have been some photos taken of me recently that are pretty freaking unflattering. Although I know I have extra poundage that needs to be lost, I certainly did not think that I currently look like Jabba the Hut. Only worse. And I'm not exaggerating.
I don't LOVE having photos taken, but I also don't mind them - especially if a moment is being captured. I rarely look at photos of myself and think that they're brilliant - but there are a few photos that I'll actually look at, and feel happy about the image reflected back at me. Lately, those images are far and few.
What is it about photos that are different about a mirror reflection? And why is the mirror reflection never as truthful? Maybe because it isn't permanently etched onto a piece of paper? Because when I look in the mirror, I know that I need to lose weight - but I don't think that I look unfit to be seen by the general public, you know? These recent photos, however, turned my stomach.
I really do feel like I'm living in a fat-suit at the moment, and I want so desperately to shed it. I'm working on it, I know - but I'm kicking myself in the butt for allowing things to get to this stage in the first place. It is sooooo easy to gain weight - like, looking at a piece of cake will add 5 lbs onto my body. Losing it takes extraordinary determination, blood, sweat, and tears. And remind me again why I don't remember this before inhaling a bowl of ice-cream?
Well, I'm on my way to changing this. I wish it could happen quickly, but that is life. As crushed as I am by these recent pictures, it is just more motivation to get myself into gear.
Having said that....they'll make great "Before" pictures. Because my "After" one's are going to knock my own socks off.;-)