Over the last few days, I've realized that I finally have to stop living in the past when it comes to this weight loss journey of mine. I catch myself thinking about much weight I had lost in the past, or how easy it was to get to the gym, and how history will just repeat itself effortlessly now. In fact, I'm starting to realize that while one week of healthy eating and exercise might feel "routine", the next week could be an uphill battle. Life has changed, I've changed, and this journey is going to be different.
For example, for the last few weeks, I had scheduled myself to go to the gym in the evenings. It hadn't been happening for a variety of reasons - the majority of which were nonsense. Finally, I decided that I was going to give it my full effort this week, and even asked the hubby to shove me out the door if I started making excuses. Well, I'd get home the last couple of days from an exhausting day at work, hang out with my daughter, put her to bed, and would have zero energy left within me to go to the gym. Or so I thought.
But guess what? I did it. I've gone the last two nights. But let me tell you - I've been kicking and screaming the whole way. Once I get there, it's a different story. There's a different energy altogether - I work very hard, and on the walk home, I feel amazing.
I guess I just assumed I could "fall back" into old patterns, and morph into the gym rat that I once was. I know she's in me - but it's going to take some time to get into the swing of things again. I've had a long year of inactivity (with sporadic spurts within), and that's a long time to fall out of habit.
I'm really proud of the effort I've made over the last couple of days. But let me tell you - it has been effort indeed. I've been making a conscious effort to eat well, to exercise, to drink my water. The last two days have felt like two weeks. Eventually, it will start to feel routine - but for now, I need to go forward, full speed ahead.
Three more days to losing my pound for this week. Keeping my eye on the prize helps.;-)