Thursday, August 13, 2009

Day 10: #Crash #Burn

My name is Sonya. This blog is about the difficulties (and triumphs) of my weight loss journey. In that vein, I promise to tell the whole truth, so help me god.

I just had a binge. It involved M&M's, a granola bar, and a cinnamon scone. I don't even know why I did it, really. I'm really sleep-deprived today (rough night yesterday), a bit bored and lonely, and I had a salad for lunch. Even though it was huge (and filling), I think I just psychologically didn't feel satisfied.

I now have two choices:

(1) Throw the towel in for the rest of the day, and start again tomorrow;
(2) Pick myself up this freaking minute, and get myself in order the rest of the day.

Formerly, I would have opted for (1). Damage is already done, so what's the point?

But I'm not giving up this time. I'm going to fall lots. I'm going to bruise. I might even cut myself open. But I sure as hell am not going to give up. So help me god, it's going to be number 2. I'm done feeling sorry for myself.


Rebecca said...

Seriously! Pick yourself up!

You can do this!

I know this, you know this!



janet said...

No one is perfect, we all make mistakes. Do NOT beat yourself up over it, just get right back on track. You CAN do this!

Sonya said...
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eyesonthehourglass said...

Thanks for the comment on my blog!

I can totally relate. I just recently acknowledged on my blog that being bored and lonely is what effects my eating the most.

It sounds like you are doing well though and picked yourself off the floor. I think you hit it spot on with the 80/20 rule.