Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Day 43: This gum had better do the trick

What a refreshing feeling this is. I "blew" my plan yesterday (well, relatively speaking) and I'm not even phased by it. I've just shrugged it off to being a bad day, and here I am again, ready to focus. Maybe we all need a day or two like that, so that we can come back with a vengeance.

Having said that, it's the "after lunch" period right now, and I am suffering for some chocolate. I'm chewing gum like a fiend, in an effort to distract myself. You'd think I was trying to quit smoking or something. Well, no joke, I am trying to kick bad habits so that it isn't too far off from what I'm doing. Isn't this ridiculous?

Sometimes I wonder how I got myself into this situation in the first place. Was all that chocolate really worth this now? Those pizza nights, those extra scoops of ice-cream, the Chinese noodles? So. NOT. worth. it. But there's no point in dwelling on the past - I made some bad choices, and now I'm going to work for as long as it takes to undo the damage. At least this is one thing in life that I can actually reverse, right?

I can't believe I'm 40 + days into this journey. Those baby steps sure do add up.

I'm off to get another piece of gum.


Sonya said...

That food was so. not. worth. it. I totally know what you mean. I don't know how the hell I let myself get here either. It sucks. I'm glad that you didn't feel mega guilty for having an off day. Guilt can be brutal sometimes!

Christy said...

I feel the need to thank you for your wonderful posts lately. They have touched on every single struggle/thought that I have been going through. They are eye opening and comforting.

I heart you.

And NO. I don't remember the moments of the chocolate going into my mouth but I do remember the moments of feeling icky and disgusting in my own skin.

Teresa said...

Baby steps.... way to go! Slow and steady wins the race. Your attitude is great, totally understand where you are coming from. Keep up the good work.