Firstly, thanks for all of your lovely birthday wishes! I had such a wonderful day and weekend. Um, a bit too wonderful, I'm afraid (read on!). I find birthdays to be both lovely and overwhelming at the same time. When I was younger, I couldn't wait to get older. When I was in my mid-twenties, I didn't want to age: staying at the same age forever would have been fine by me! After I turned thirty, I started to feel anxious about getting older. But this was the first birthday where I felt totally zen about everything. It was nice.
I did go slightly overboard with my eating, though. I really can't put it in any other way. Was it as bad as previous birthdays? Absolutely not. But it wasn't stellar by any means, and I'm not proud. I was presented with a plethora of treats: one bite lead to another, and the pandora's box of sugar was opened wide for the rest of the weekend.
On Sunday morning, I hit up my spinning class to burn off some calories. Again, this is new for me! I would have written off the entire weekend in the past. Unfortunately, it wasn't enough to force me back on track. My body was still craving sugar for the rest of the day - I tried to wean myself off as much as possible.
Yesterday, I had an overwhelming day which didn't help things. I'm going back to work really soon, and I think it's weighing heavily on my heart. With the holidays around the corner and everything else, there is a lot going on in my head. I didn't exactly eat my face off, but I didn't make a huge effort to try either.
December has always been a tough eating month for me. Birthday celebrations happen at the beginning of the month. By the time I recover from that, the holiday celebrations are in full swing. Before you know it, I'm thinking about New Year's resolutions and working off the weight. By that point, January is a cold and blustery month and it's hard to commit to exercising all the time. The vicious cycle continues.
This December is going to be different. I woke up this morning, and decided to get in control as quickly as possible. I've got two things going on here: firstly, emotional eating; I'm overwhelmed by a lot going on right now. Secondly, once my body gets hooked on sugar, I begin to physically crave more and more.
I've never dissected why I eat before. On some level, I know that it's emotional. But for the most part, I ignore it. This time around, I'm going to figure it out by addressing the root cause. Otherwise, I'll never get past it.
So that's it! I'm back in action starting today. I'm going to figure out how to deal with my emotions in a more positive way: starting to mentally prepare for work, talking it out with my friends and family, and buying myself some new make-up and a few wardrobe pieces.
Eating is NOT the solution. But spinning might be. Tee hee.