Tuesday, December 08, 2009

Recognizing emotional eating

Firstly, thanks for all of your lovely birthday wishes! I had such a wonderful day and weekend. Um, a bit too wonderful, I'm afraid (read on!). I find birthdays to be both lovely and overwhelming at the same time. When I was younger, I couldn't wait to get older. When I was in my mid-twenties, I didn't want to age: staying at the same age forever would have been fine by me! After I turned thirty, I started to feel anxious about getting older. But this was the first birthday where I felt totally zen about everything. It was nice.

I did go slightly overboard with my eating, though. I really can't put it in any other way. Was it as bad as previous birthdays? Absolutely not. But it wasn't stellar by any means, and I'm not proud. I was presented with a plethora of treats: one bite lead to another, and the pandora's box of sugar was opened wide for the rest of the weekend.

On Sunday morning, I hit up my spinning class to burn off some calories. Again, this is new for me! I would have written off the entire weekend in the past. Unfortunately, it wasn't enough to force me back on track. My body was still craving sugar for the rest of the day - I tried to wean myself off as much as possible.

Yesterday, I had an overwhelming day which didn't help things. I'm going back to work really soon, and I think it's weighing heavily on my heart. With the holidays around the corner and everything else, there is a lot going on in my head. I didn't exactly eat my face off, but I didn't make a huge effort to try either.

December has always been a tough eating month for me. Birthday celebrations happen at the beginning of the month. By the time I recover from that, the holiday celebrations are in full swing. Before you know it, I'm thinking about New Year's resolutions and working off the weight. By that point, January is a cold and blustery month and it's hard to commit to exercising all the time. The vicious cycle continues.

This December is going to be different. I woke up this morning, and decided to get in control as quickly as possible. I've got two things going on here: firstly, emotional eating; I'm overwhelmed by a lot going on right now. Secondly, once my body gets hooked on sugar, I begin to physically crave more and more.

I've never dissected why I eat before. On some level, I know that it's emotional. But for the most part, I ignore it. This time around, I'm going to figure it out by addressing the root cause. Otherwise, I'll never get past it.

So that's it! I'm back in action starting today. I'm going to figure out how to deal with my emotions in a more positive way: starting to mentally prepare for work, talking it out with my friends and family, and buying myself some new make-up and a few wardrobe pieces.

Eating is NOT the solution. But spinning might be. Tee hee.


Bex said...

Happy Belated Birthday! I am glad you had a lovely day :)
You always inspire me, I just know you are going to be great once you are back at work and this month will be a breeze! Sending you lots of hugs and love and kisses xoxo

Teresa said...

It sounds as though you got a good handle on the situation. Sugar always sets me off as well and I too find December a very difficult month. I feel for you getting ready to go back to work. Try not to stress too much about it. You're doing such a great job keep strong, you can do anything.

Sheridan said...

awareness is a BIG step in the right direction. For me it's boredom I need to keep moving, keep busy with other stuff. And a little sonething good on your bday is not the end and wow followed by a workout is totally awesome! Since restarting the Y this week, chapeau to spinners, 15 mins on there (stationary bike) and my mid section felt numb and I thought I was gonna pass out LoL but I plan on working myself up till the new schedule comes out in Feb by then I hope to be ready for a beginner class, but will check one out next week to get a clue what to expect!

All Women Stalk said...

Your decision to get in control as quickly as possible is amazing. And even more amazing is actually doing it. Good luck in trying to work out your eating issues. Like Sheridan said, becoming more aware is a big step.


Tavia said...

December is a hell of a month of me when it comes to food. In December is my B-day and also all these holidays. In my country we make very traditional meals and celebrate together in the family. Most of the food is very fat and makes you feel so heavy after the 3 X-mas days. If you are not eating will be impolite of you so what can u do to please everyone. Here gyms are closed during the holiday season...so u are on your own during this time.
In those 3 days of X-mas I can take 3 kg :((

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