One thing I've realized on this weight loss journey of mine, is that I spend a lot of time lamenting about stuff I shouldn't have done.
Like, the chocolate shortbread cookies I devoured from Trader Joe's. Or the burrito bowl I ate for dinner last week. Or polishing off the last of the Christmas chocolates.
The guilt from poor performance is horrible. Because you know what? It perpetuates more guilt. And then some more. And then that makes me say, "Screw this! I'm wallowing in guilt! Let me drown my spirits in more chocolate". Hence, the vicious cycle.
Lately, I am truly learning that the whole day doesn't have to go out the window because of one small indulgence. It's possible to course correct. It's possible to rebound from the "oops". And move on.
Instead of wasting my effort wallowing in self pity and guilt, I'm going to turn that energy into something positive. I will find a way to compensate for my slip-ups so that they don't take over and pack on the pounds. I will focus on working out for longer, or harder. I will concentrate on making up for it with a lighter meal. Because I'm in this for the long haul, and you know what? This is exactly the protocol that people who are of a "healthy weight" follow!
I'm still struggling after the holidays. January 1st isn't a light switch that just flicks on. Getting back on track is a work in progress. Which will make me think twice (thrice?) about veering off path again, believe me.
Nonetheless, I'm getting there, one day at a time. And I'm not wasting anymore energy on what I should have done, could have done, or would have done. Instead, I'm going to focus on what I will do to become healthy and strong.