Monday, May 17, 2010

When all is lost, just start running

I'm going to just pretend like I haven't been gone for several weeks, how's that?;-)

Really, my personal life has been topsy turvy upside down. But things are starting to settle down again, which is good.

Here's the stuff that makes me cringe, but I'm writing it down:

- I've gained more weight;
- I feel like crap;
- My pants are tight;
- I've never felt worse.

In all honesty, I don't think the mountain has ever looked as high. I spent the last few weeks feeling sorry for myself. I promised myself that "this" was it. I told myself that I'd hit rock bottom again. I lectured myself.

So one day, I decided to stop wallowing. I decided to just start moving. I told myself that I could *wallow* AND move at the same time!

So I started running again. I've been getting up at 5:30am, before anyone else in my house rises. It's my time. No excuses about how I'm tired from my day. Nothing to get in the way, except my alarm. You know what? I saw about five other people on the street running. Me? I was waddling. But at least I wasn't alone!

Last week, I finished Week 1 of Couch-to-5K again. It felt good. I'm feeling hopeful. I'm starting to feel like myself again.

So, no challenges. No, "I'm going to lose 100lbs by my birthday". No unrealistic goals. I'm just going to run my little heart out. It's all I know how to do right now. I'm hoping the rest will work itself out in the fullness of time.

12 comments:

Barbara said...

Good for you Sonya.. that is a very focused action plan.. and you are Just Doing IT for YOU!!.. dividens will pay off for you.. wishing you movement on the scale and baggy pants to come..

Marta said...

Doesn't it feel good to be your genuine self? You're awesome! Glad you're back...I missed you...

Kim said...

I'm so glad you're blogging again. :) We've missed you!

Christy said...

I love love love that you are back. All we can do is start at the beginning....

I've just recently started running again too and it's good for the body AND the mind.

xooxox

dana said...

I did weight watchers. it worked, but It took FOREVER. last year, a month before my best friend's wedding I wanted to lose 11 Pounds, and my mom found this diet that works fast. I lost 10 Pounds in about 20 days, and it wasn't one of them creazy low carb diets or anything. they give you this menu that you need to follow, and it menipulates your hormones, and forces your body to burn fat. here's a realy cool website I found about this diet- some girl tried this diet, and she created a blog and reported every single day untill she reached her goal weight. check it out- this diet is easy to follow and I lost the weight fast and haven't gained it back since :)
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