Last night, I had a wicked, wicked craving for salt and vinegar chips. Like a whole bag. So early in the evening, I decided I would indulge myself in this idea - after all, my craving was overpowering all the logic that underlies the reason for this blog! You know when that happens - nothing else matters except that temporary satiation....and then the crappy feeling that follows. Except, we never think about the crappy feeling that follows.
But then, for the first time in weeks, I actually thought about it. Did I really want to do that to myself? Was it really worth it? My body was screaming "yes, yes"...but my mind was riddled with confusion. So, I decided that I'd go on a walk. If, upon returning from my walk, I still wanted the chips so badly - well then, I'd just have them.
I went on my walk. Came back - and honestly, couldn't be bothered anymore. I even added some veggies to my dinner. And I finally felt like I was in control again.
Was it worth it? Hell, yes. I was even down a pound on the scale this morning. Does it mean that logic will always prevail? God, no. It just means that I need to ask myself whether I really need something before it gets vacuumed into my body.
I'm still stressed today, but at least I've taken the first step in managing it!