Thanks for all of your comments! You're absolutely right - I shouldn't feel guilty about needing time for myself. I'm starting to realize that the more defined of a person I am, the better mom I will be to my daughter. Besides - my hubby is awesome at taking care of her, so I leave her in good hands whenever I need a break. I've decided that I'm going to try and steal away some more time for myself every now and then. Aside from my exercise breaks, that is!:-)
New mommyhood is incredible. There are moments where I can't believe that I'm actually a mom! And when my daughter smiles her gummy little grin at me, I feel like I've finally found my purpose in life, you know? At the same time, it's easy to suffer from identity crisis. Am I only a mom who is passionate about her baby? Or can I be a mom who has other passions too? Like running, travelling, and vegan cooking? Right now, I'm trying to strike a balance. Since it's only been about 11 weeks, I need to give myself some time.:-)
In that vein, this Saturday, I've booked an afternoon at the Aveda Salon nearby. I'm having a massage, manicure, and pedicure. I can't wait! I loooove Aveda.
My sometimes well-meaning mother called me one day last week and asked, "So - what have you been doing all day?". Ha. Hmmmm....part of me wanted to scream in exasperation, and the other part of me wanted to laugh. I mean, what kind of a question was that? Taking care of a newborn baby is a lot of work - especially since my little girl is NOT into sleeping. AT all. In fact, as I am blogging right now, one foot is rocking her little bouncer chair, and I'm typing like a crazy-woman so that she doesn't start getting cranky. Between diaper changes, feedings, entertaining, trying to nap - it's absolutely insane.
So, I started thinking...how in the world am I going to be successful at my weight loss efforts if I don't have a proper plan? Sure, I can eat properly and exercise. But that's waaaaay to broad. I need to figure out exactly what I'm going to eat, and when I'm going to exercise. Otherwise, this is never going to happen.
Last night, I spent almost 2 hours coming up with a meal plan for this week. Breakfast, Lunch, Dinner, and Snacks. I also planned the days that I will exercise.
The meal planning part was painful. Writing down every morsel of food that I'll put in my mouth was not enjoyable. But it was also extremely eye-opening. I realized how much better my nutrition could be, if I was paying attention to the type of balance I'm currently getting. Like, I've gone for 2-3 days without eating a single fruit. Plus, this will ensure that all the fruits and veggies in my fridge get used up by the end of the week!;-)
The crazy thing is, it's working. I know, I know - it's only been over 1/2 a day so far. But it's working - and I feel really good about it. I know exactly what I'm going to eat, so there's no opportunity for me to rummage through the cupboards and eat chocolate for lunch. I know that I'm having one healthy treat a day, so I'm looking forward to my apple-walnut muffin later today.
When we've got a distance to go somewhere, and the path isn't exactly well travelled, doesn't it make sense to have a roadmap to get there?
This way, I have less of a chance of getting lost along the way.;-)