I can't believe that I'm quoting James Brown, but that's exactly how I feel!
First of all, thanks a million times over for all of your supportive comments these last few days. Having all of you "around", if you will, makes a world of difference! It makes me believe that I can actually do this - and you all inspire me in so many ways.
I'm feeling good right now. I've been extremely active, and my eating has been great. Since the baby, I've made many attempts to stay on track with this weight loss journey. None of these attempts were futile - I think they were all necessary to get me where I am today. I wish the first, second, or third times were charms - but oh well. Even if I get it right on the 100th try, that's fine - I'll have gotten it right! And that's what counts.
Yesterday was my first chocolate-free day. Sounds crazy, huh? But it's true. I can't remember the last time I had a chocolate-free day...I've been nibbling on bits and pieces of chocolate like a rabbit for months now. And I don't think I've gone a day without chocolate. I'm not gonna lie - things were going well until late afternoon. I wanted some chocolate in a BAD way. But I somehow rode it out. I actually prevailed!:-)
Today, I went to an exercise class with the baby that involved salsa dancing. It was soooo much fun, and the baby had a great time. I was sweating up a storm, but smiling throughout the entire class. I also walked to and from, which was about 5K. Not shabby at all!
I also surprised myself with a change in attitude yesterday. I realized that my wedding anniversary (Numba 5!) is this Thursday. Hubby and I decided that we should go out for dinner with the baby, to celebrate. We're going to a relatively healthy vegetarian restaurant, so the menu should be good. But still - not as healthy as a home-cooked meal. Since we're going out on Thursday, I've been looking forward to it - everytime I feel like "splurging" on unhealthy food, I remember that I'm going to be treated on Thursday. And it stops me. I can't believe that I'm finally making tradeoffs. A few weeks ago, I'd have had my cake and eaten it too.
Some of you commented about how my "rock bottom moment" may have been the turning point for me. Interesting - I've been thinking about that too. It's been a long time coming, and perhaps that was the straw that broke the camel's back. At the same time, it's just too early to tell. I'm going to have plenty of "oops" moments in the next little while, but hopefully they will be outnumbered by a million good ones.
Case in point - today, I'm behind on my water goal already. Better go and drink up!
The biggest challenge of all? I'm going to be dying to weigh myself next week. How do I talk myself out of that one?